Paycheck=0=Lots of blessings

So at the beginning of this month, I was freaked out. Not because we weren't getting a paycheck, but I was freaked about how my husband would handle it. Would he stroke out or have a heart attack? Would he be a grumpy grinch? Well the answer to that is no. He has been praying, reading his Bible, and going to Bible Study faithfully.
How does one get through November and Thanksgiving without a paycheck? Well, first you pray and have faith. 2. You put your pride aside. 3. You have great friends and family that surprise you in so many ways that you can't help but feel loved and have faith!
We are now at the end of the month, and I have 200 dollars in my account. How does that happen? <3 Thanks you for the many people that anonymously gave to our family. What to do now? 1. Continue on that praying, reading, and going to Bible Study. 2. Leave the pride in the past. 3. Love the friends you have in many ways. 4. Pay it forward.

Thanksgiving

Three years ago made Thanksgiving one of my most memorable Thanksgivings. Kids had been gone to Dallas since July of that year, because I'd been in the hospital...read Butterfly days for explanation. We thought that it was going to be Christmas or January before they would be home. On November 14 of that year, we started to move from a hotel into our house. We had a few little things and a bed. That was it. We were in the process of finding toys and beds for the kids. The day before Thanksgiving my husband called me. I remember I was in the garage trying to get some things unloaded and organized. I answered the phone, and he said, "well, I just talked to your dad. We are going to Thanksgiving to see the kids, and we are bringing them home...tomorrow!" I was shocked, surprised, elated, crying, and so happy!
We left the next day to head to Dallas. The kids had no idea what was to await them. When we got there, we told them to start packing. They were so shocked. They didn't even want to wait for dinner, they were ready to GO! We could never really explain why our short weekend trips to Dallas why we couldn't take them home, and now they were actually coming home!
On our trip home, we smiled, cried, and held hands as we drove to our new home. A home that has held many precious memories for us. It's small, not in a very good neighborhood, and has mismatched furniture, but it is OUR home. A place of happiness and growth. I a place of healing and warmth.
3 years...it seems just like yesterday.

Trusting in His promises

Well, we found out today that Terry's paycheck for the month is $400. LOL. Well...we are trusting in God's promises. Lord, please put food on our table, gas in our cars, and remind us that you are here. Please give Terry peace...ok I need it as well. When we are tempted to question, we will fall on you. I'm seeking you. I love you. I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand, lay back against you and breathe, and hear your heartbeat. Let us have joy through all circumstances.

Kari Jobe:

The more i seek you,
the more i find you.

The more i find you,
the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat

This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

The more i seek you,
the more i find you.

The more i find you,
the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat

This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat

This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
hear your heart beat

This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace...


(Thanks to Myasia for these lyrics)
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I miss you

There are some days that I miss you so much. Not the days that you didn't remember me, but the days that you did. The days that your smile would just light up a room. Your giggle...oh I loved it. I miss your house and the way it smelled. I miss sitting at your kitchen table and talking. I miss making things with you and cooking things with you. I miss the way you smelled. I miss your hands...i always loved playing with them. I miss your white hair.
I look forward to the day that I get to be in Heaven with you. No, I'm not going to try to break my way in before God wants me to be there, but I can't wait to leave this earth and be with you in Heaven. I wonder what it's going to be like. I imagine, but I know that even the greatest thing I can imagine is no match for what it will be like.
I look at the roses that were on your bed as you were lifted down into this earth, and I think of you. I hear Maggie tell me about how you are with Jesus and she misses you. It makes me miss you more. Maggie talks about you all the time. Wonder how a 5 year old can remember memories and not forget one of the greatest women to walk this earth? The most beautiful woman I've ever known. The kindest heart and sweetest spirit.
I remember sitting at your table so scared to tell you that I was pregnant and getting married. "well, things happen!" You didn't judge. You made me feel better. I remember when I was having a hard time in school, and mom and dad were going to ground me for the summer, and you told them NO! I remember walking to your house after school just because i could. I remember decorating your house for Christmas. I have that little village, and I put it up every year now. I walk into my kitchen every morning, and remember sitting at the "special table"...now that special table is where my children eat dinner every night.
I'm so glad that you were able to share so much of my life with me. I"m so glad that each of my children were able to sit on your lap and share those memories with you. I'm so glad that I had a grandmother that everyone wishes they had. You are my hero...my inspiration. I loved you so much, and I still have times when I just cry like a little girl. I'm so glad that you aren't hurting anymore, and I know I will see you again some day. Some days are hard, because i don't feel like I was there enough for you. I didn't come to see you every time I was in town. I didn't want to remember you like you were these last few years. I wanted to remember you out walking me at the mall. I wanted to remember you sitting in your chair loving all the commotion of grandchildren and great grandchildren playing in your house.
I know you are watching over me....forever and always you will be in my heart. <3 You Deedee.